I have 3 very different personalities. It’s not like a split personality disorder, but then again, you be the judge.
Helena–That’s me in my basic form. Helena is depressed, introverted, cynical, and pessimistic. She plods through life, likes stability, fears most things, is not a risk taker, avoids issues, watches events from the fringe, and is happiest alone or in the company of animals. She goes to work, comes home, and occupies her free time with hobbies or chores which can’t be put off any longer. Medication has helped Helena put a smile on her face and given her the ability to interact with others without having an anxiety attack and running away. Helena hates people. She especially hates being looked at or touched.
Lily–She is generous, kind and soft hearted. Lily hears voices. One time Lily heard a voice tell her to take her last $25 into the daycare when she picked up her kids. One of the new workers was standing by the door, crying because the paychecks didn’t come in and she had no food for her kids for the weekend. Without thought, Lily gave the woman, a total stranger, the money. Helena wouldn’t have done that.
Another time, Lily heard a voice tell her to buy a pair of leather gloves for the woman Helena buys firewood from. Lily left the gloves in the woman’s truck and a few weeks later the woman had an accident with the log splitter. The only thing that saved her fingers was the leather glove.
Lily does many kind things that Helena doesn’t approve of because many of the kindnesses are bestowed on people who don’t deserve them. Lily doesn’t care.
Glory–Glory is trouble. Back when my mother recited, “There was a little girl, who had a little curl right in the middle of her forehead. When she was good she was very, very good and when she was bad SHE WAS HORRID!” it was Glory who answered, “That doesn’t rhyme.”
Glory is the one who wreaks havoc on people, causes shit storms, tells dirty jokes, gets drunk, and hits on strange men. Glory makes bad decisions and can’t be trusted. She’s smart, funny, and vivacious. She wears bright colours and smirks like she knows something you don’t. She plays with people like a Siamese plays with other cats–claws out and not nice at all. Glory forces Helena to go to confession a lot.
Glory’s new motto is, “Keep your friends close and your enemies closer.” Lately, she’s learned about manipulation. She used to be an in your face sorta gal, but now she watches and waits because revenge really is a dish best served cold.
My personalities don’t play well together. People get all Helena or all Glory. They might get Glory with a side of Helena or Helena with a side of Glory. Lily is always alone. Her sweet nature can’t deal with sad sack Helena or trouble making Glory.
Interestingly, Helena gets the most complaints at the restaurant.